One of good todays points

Fails at our way make us winners. Because we didn't fail one time , we fail a lot and  now we are winners, because we had learned. People who looks at us some day can say : You are a lucky guy! You have so many things.  And then you can respond, yeah i worked for is so hard.  Men, i have been trying and trying and nothing came right. Well, you tried  not enough times.

Todays at lesson I heard that fails help us in our lives the same way as winnings do. And I think that was good lesson to be at.

Vocabulary: spring 3.

apostate - adj. not faithful to religion or party or cause;noun a disloyal person who betrays or deserts his cause or religion or political party or friend etc.
effusive - adj. extravagantly demonstrative; uttered with unrestrained enthusiasm
impasse - noun a street with only one way in or out; a situation in which no progress can be made or no advancement is possible
euphoria - noun a feeling of great (usually exaggerated) elation
lugubrious - adj. excessively mournful
bravado - noun a swaggering show of courage
consensus - noun agreement in the judgment or opinion reached by a group as a whole
dichotomy - noun being twofold; a classification into two opposed parts or subclasses
constrict - verb become tight or as if tight; squeeze or press together
gothic - adj. characterized by gloom and mystery and the grotesque; of or relating to the Goths; of or relating to the language of the ancient Goths;
punctilio - noun strict observance of formalities; a fine point of etiquette or petty formality
metamorphosis - noun a complete change of physical form or substance especially as by magic or witchcraft;the marked and rapid transformation of a larva into an adult that occurs in some animals; a striking change in appearance or character or circumstances
raconteur - noun a person skilled in telling anecdotes
sine qua non - an indispensable and essential action, condition, or ingredient.
quixotic - adj. not sensible about practical matters; unrealistic
vendetta - noun a feud in which members of the opposing parties murder each other
non sequitur - An inference or conclusion that does not follow from the premises or evidence; A statement that does not follow logically from what preceded it.
mystique - noun an aura of heightened value or interest or meaning surrounding a person or thing
quagmire - noun a soft wet area of low-lying land that sinks underfoot
parlous - adj. fraught with danger

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I was wondering  how  i can be child again. Not literally, but by doing some infant stuff. Like sleep over  at my grandma's home (yeah thats is my 2nd home- always some part of memories would catch me in my  present being and also in future) or eating sweet, unhealthy things and don't care about calories. Because of  one simple reason - i don't even  know that they exist... Anyway. In my head i have started realising, that i'm becoming an adult- and it scares me . So much that -as always i wanted to be and  felt older than i actually was.  It scares my that i have just? is it just or enough?  two years to fully grown up. This year im going to turn 18. So according to Polish high school i supposed to end up it  in age of 20,5. (one year later than people in my age because of an exchange year in usa-ill write about it in future post) Later on i would feel guilty if i won't  grow up. I don't wanna be child foever.  Do I?

Thing that scares me the most is fact that i would have to run everything by my own. Pay everything each expenses for myself. Start going to a job - which i actually don't have to love , even like. That in some point people would start asking not comfortable question, because when they do think that you are an adult- they can ask you for whatever they want to.  You are not a child they'll say. You not supposed to be worrying about my stupid questions. Really? So why would you ask ?
That's  part of growing-up. I know that it will happen.  Maybe that's why i have started thinking about time machine, rainbows and cookies-no calories? Maybe that's why i still not sure who i wanna be in future?

When i was little to each question my parents found an answer. I still even don't know how, but as I see being grown up women, being an adult :
A lot of questions. Not a lot of answers.

3 people that had inspired and impact my life.

Since five years I'm interested in photography. Day by day I'm trying to get better and better. However i couldn't start my passion just by myself - so here it is -David Duchemin.

 He " is a world & humanitarian assignment photographer, best-selling author, international workshop leader, and accidental founder of Craft & Vision. When not chasing adventure and looking for beauty".  http://davidduchemin.com/contact/

I mainly increase my skills basing on his materials. I road his books, ebooks.  Here is link to his portfolio : http://davidduchemin.com/portfolio/global-good/
He is making money on his passion. At the same  time he is helping a lot people by showing living conditions in the World. He inspired me that i can travel and be whoever i wanna be in future.

When i was thinking about another person that i really would like to know -jump to my mind - Martyna Wojciechowska. She is "Editor-in-chief of the Polish edition of National Geographic magazine, National Geographic Traveler and Kaleidoscope.". 

Except that, she climbed to all of 7 the highest mountains in the world.  She has got  degree in economics -what is one of mine interest fields (even that she traveled and got to know a big part of the World). By her brave and whole life  is showing that even with difficulties, we can make ours dream come true. Even if she is a women -she shown big strength of soul. http://www.martynawojciechowska.pl/   I rode one of her books - about when she was climbing to Mountain Everest and it really impressed me and open my eyes that nothing is impossible.

My third person unfortunately dead at 2005- but he  had  really big impact in my life. In whole World  did. I'm telling about John Poul 2. He was speaking and shearing his beliefs and knowledge at simple but in really interesting way. He traveled and spread catolic religion all around the World. When i was younger i used to hear his speaking  each Sunday. Whole family sat by the tv to listen his speech. He changed World showing that we supposed to be grateful what we got from God and show another people love in simple, good gestures.

Thats my people.  Somehow they show me that is no border to realise dreams. Somehow im sitting right here in Santa Maria, California -miles and miles away from my homeland. It's one reason of that - i had belived that i can.