new class. again

The third year in row I am gonna meet a new class. I think,  that the biggest fears connected with that is "Am I going to be accepted by others"? Other than that I am just curious and happy to meet new people, greet known ones and just start a school year.
And now I am just yellous to myself one year ago, when i was attending to Righetti High School.
You would think, naaah it is just Righetti. But right now those memories are a lot. I rather go to school where lessons are not lasting 40 hours per school week. One of my days I start at 8 am and end at 4pm
Hard to imagine, even harder to live throught it. Wish me luck!
That is my new/old school website -  lo9gim17.pl

My plans
I promised mysel, that after my exchange i am going to travel as much as I can - and I didn't break my promises!
I am going to go to Berlin (Germany) for weekend and also to Finnland in December (Can't wait)
Hopefully I will post some pictures from there :D

:)
Ali

Vocabulary-September

Here is vocabulary,that i wanna have to make-up my English language skills. I took that kind of idea from dr.Preston and i am thankfull to use it right now.
hurl

verb (used with object)

1.

to throw or fling with great force or vigor

verb (used without object)

4.to throw a missile.

bound- tied; in bonds:

   a bound prisoner.

  - idioms

 bound up in /with,

1. inseparably connected with.
2. devoted or attached to
3. 
   

biased- to cause partiality or favoritism in (a person); influence, especially unfairly

How I am learning lanuages

I realised that paper books are less handy than using web to learn languages. Instead of staring at book and doing boring exercises i am learning by fg. medium.com , youtube- including tedx or any other tutorial made by native speakers.  Books for me are boring (to learn languages other than that they are awesome) , not updated with what is going around the whole World.  In  high school i have had Spanish book to learn that language  which pictures in it was based on past decade. Menwhile I am learning English  I am using  medium  (as my 2 nd language) and the same time I got to know people's perspective what is going on - that is amazing!

To learn Spanish i am just googling - "spanish games " and voila knowing that language is easier that i thought. It is learning by fun not by teacher you have to learn that material to wednes...  <snorring and aslept while teachers' talk :P >
 One thing that I changed durnig process of learning anything- Fail a lot and say that you are awesome. Even though if you are struggling and/or you are  at the begging of your way to be a master in that field. Because that takes some time. That takes effort and it depens just on you if you wanna whole the time complain or get your guts together and learn. Use collaboration if you have any problem that you can't solve. And have great time while learnig! Have fun - that is why kids are learning faster. They don't have to learn. They want to. They doesn't feel as learning. They see building a wooden brick tower as fun- and by that they are learning.  What? Fg. physic and math and many more... Or even collaboration in group - pass me that red one , we are going to put it right to the top.
Good luck folks ! :)

Start-up to be

I am thinking to open a new company. My own start-up. But i just don't know which of my ideas woulde be the best. Anybody wanna cooperate? I wish that somebody could help me :). How great it would be to be boss of a company? I think that would be amazing. I don't wannt to do it just on my own. 

If you wanna talk and discuss ideas - we can talk via skype and write through e-mail - mine - nakoncu@o2.pl :)

Poem - Close 1

I am closed

For recent period of time

Not for always

Just for a decent thought

For decent feeling

As soon i will touch 

the skye

you will know

I am here 

I am inside my soul

Running and spliting each end of the air

Feeling so small 

But so strong 

That if you would ask me what i know

I would answer everything 

- 

when the universe has no beeing 

i am inside it and going throug

all that mess

by my own 

with happines 

because I KNOW

how powerfull i become

Fill it right- U.S land of....

I don't like when people say  ''you haven't changed".  I am changing each day. As everybody. Little by little, but it is more than sitting and doing nothing.  Even if you don't know me elling you right now - I'm tha it is 100%  chance, that at least i changed my clothes.

Changes are amazing. I love them. By them i am becoming better. I am failing a lot. But I never forget to fight for myself. Few days ago,I said that I want to be as good joke teller as my sister . And it was told me, that "you just  have to have it" . I don't think so . Is no border to learn anything in any period of life. Just becuse it seems imposibble for somebody  doesn' mean it is not possible for me (or you) to make it come true. We just have to start our way of failing and suceeding in this category. And have fun. That is why i love U.S. and why i learned there more thet i could have ever think about. Because is LAND OF OPPORTUNITY. Get it right people- O PPO RTU NI TY. And please use those chances, those opportunities, even if you are not leaving in us. Use more opportunities that you can think about. With hard work one of them is going to work out.

So don't make borders neither to yourself nor others. Don't say you can't - say definetly it is going to make come true - just by working your asses off and spending time on that to become masters in your masterpiece. Become master of your life. Don't be lost anymore. Follow your calling- even  if it scarry as heck and nobody will help you, and even if they gonna try to take you to the ground to make it harder for you. You think nobody will believe in you? That is not true - I am telling you right now - I do believe in your possibilities. Why? Cause i was up high and i was also down low and just believing in my power make me go up high again and again and even i am low now i am gonna fly.. away from my fears to my dreams. 

Good luck ! I believe in your possibilities because you are amazing. But you  can be better just by being yourself and making your dreams come true!

Ali

May time in May not go so fast?

With coldplay i have amazing memories since childhood. And their music still make smile on my face. So here it is - tune for day (wait about 10 sec when actual song starts)

I think that mood of song is really accurate for today weather (chilly and cloudy). Something that i can enjoy with coup of tea and book to read. 

Chilly weather makes me think about fall in my homeland. I have 20 days to be back to Poland. I feel myself in so American way, so addicted to warm California weather that it will make my come back harder. I got to know amazing people in here that is not that easy to realize that we will be thousand miles away also with 9 hour difference. 

ps I am planning to post what kind of food product we don't have in Poland 

Mistakes

I have just login to  google account. And it was hard. It was hard, because i thought that is going to be too easy.  I typed it wrong couple of times  and finally I got in.
The easiest way to make mistake is not work with patience. We can be masters at our fields and one thing can ruin whole work.
Two years ago one woman send to court from five files the wrong one. She wasn't to paying enough attention, what she was doing. It cost company couple of million dollars and 5 years of another employe work. They would  win  this process. Just this small slip..
That type of situation happened before and i am quite sure that is going to happen anytime soon. If not to me for sure to somebody in the World. And i don't wish that to anyone. But  we are people who are learning by mistakes. We polish our passions etc. and sometimes we get to situation when luck is in our favor and everything is going great and the last step we think is the easiest one and suddenly boom. Whatever that "boom" is. So good luck people from 0 and 1 st period finishing their masterpieces.
And now i'm gonna login to my another e-mail account. Wish me good luck :p.

DESIGN

CLASS DESIGN IDEAS :
- Joke on the doors
-coach
-at least 1 computer to free use for everybody
-fabrics on the wall
-trash basketball
-

Ja soldat.

Sometimes songs are better than any written post.
ps. I don't wanna complain a lot , but as exchange student who eats American food - sometimes i'm feeling as a soldier .  From American Dream i went this week to Food Dream. Healthy, full of vegetables , dinner at noon , with Polish family around me dream.
Don't understand me wrong. I love being in here, but sometimes even soldier need rest from fighting.

Mornings

This post is helpful if you always complain about time rush. https://medium.com/human-parts/54ee04243eb0

Maybe it's time to slow down and wake up earlier ? 

How math and algorithms helps in love when you passioned about it.

Fresh thinking

Would you be so brave to  kiss a stranger?
I think it's great idea to break our borders  except drugs etc. Of course it's not the only one option to start thinking in different ways, but i really like people's emotions and reactions.
And i think that for them it made big impact in way of behaving in future.

Before I die i wanna...

I'm really  excited what is going around my head. Im really interested what is going to bore from that post .
I hope you would like to help me with my project. It's just my baby in incubator. Does anybody want to kill a baby?
 Maybe  by this you will see that you are not helping just me but also yourself.
If you would ...
It's time for you to think what you wanna do before you die.
 It doesn't have to be in borders, don't put that's to small, that's too big dream. As John Lenon sung 'Im a dreamer, but im not the only one"
It can be as simple as putting your  answers in comments
fg. Before I die I wanna ..
feel as a kid again.
Or
 you can answer in any creative way. If you have need to  send something for that answer  as picture etc.(according to - "sky is a limit")  send it to me in email -  alice.kmi@wp.pl

I would be really grateful for your help.

ps. In Poland are a lot of stereotypes about American students. They are mainly not nice.
Please don't make me say, when I'm back  from my exchange that they are true.  
Its about honor Americans!


My ide its basing on her project :

osi

hafta wanna

I really don't like to think about "life after" . For me it's kind of expectations (from life- speaking about expectations from myself is totally different)- you have to think -even  just a little bit about future. I have no future. I have present.  Just present time is  given , past is over and  who knows what with future? I don't. I can expect, but it can fail. I and i don't wanna if i don't hafta. I   I like to dream, i love to be inspired,i like changes i like to do it- but now. Of course it can include no closer  time- but expectations  are tricky.  That's why i don't believe in big enlightenment after high school. You are the same person who woke up day before. Truly saying after ending some part of life you won't have three wishes to make. However some of the experience can make you more mature  and by putting effort to something, by longer period of life you can make changes. Not always good,  but no worries - you would learn (i hope so) at your made mistakes.

Here i think that it was really hard to write about things that normally nobody understand my way of thinking,  that part of myself. Thats the most clear point that i could made. Future post are going to be more clear :).

Things that have priority in my life - priorities set up by myself of course i like to do more. Lately i see that i have to have some point in my life. Since i got that i expect here to be happy to finally have what i was trying to get.  Pushing myself to do that is harder than doing required work as homework. In that case point where i go is seeing it by myself.

From another people i expect that they would use as much of their possibilities as they can. I now is pathetic and a little bit dream of little child. I just like to not lose hope that life can be better second by second.

It was hard for me to write that all. Not because of using foreign language -finding wants to do that was harder but I wanted to. Cause i met question -  To be or not to be?

TO BE!

Vocabulary - my own

http://www.amnestyusa.org/research/reports/north-korea-new-satellite-images-show-continued-investment-in-the-infrastructure-of-repression

Article is about that in North Korea policy of repressions is growing in strenght.
Worlds :
1.circumvent -  To surround (an enemy, for example); enclose or entrap.

2.boundary - Something that indicates a border or limit

3.comprehensive- of large scope; covering or involving much; inclusive:

4.testimony- something that serves as evidence 
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http://blog.amnestyusa.org/africa/amnesty-celebrates-mandelas-birthday-lifetime-of-activism/

Worlds:
5.acquitted -    To free or clear from a charge or accusation
6.struggle - To progress with difficulty
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http://www.nydailynews.com/sports/olympics/media-reports-sochiproblems-olympic-village-article-1.1602530  , freedictionary.com
http://mashable.com/2014/02/04/sochi-olympics-hotel-pics/

Words :
7.bizarre - odd
8.odd-unusual, strange 
9.rosy -  Bright or cheerful; optimistic

The 2014 Winter Olympics in Sochi may be marketed to the world as rosy but those inside are telling a different story.

10. pamper - the act of indulging or gratifying a desire

11. indulge- give satisfaction to

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9gag.com 

12  gear-  A toothed machine part, such as a wheel or cylinde
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http://mashable.com/2014/02/04/canadian-paralympics-ad-is-a-powerful-reality-check/
13.reveal- make visible
14. intact -uninjured
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http://topics.bloomberg.com/africa/

15. anticipated- To look forward to
16. overhauling-To examine or go over carefully for needed repairs
17. Hedge-  A line of people or objects forming a b
18. realigne - To put back into proper
19 wager- a gamble 
20. rally - To call together for a common purpose;
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One of good todays points

Fails at our way make us winners. Because we didn't fail one time , we fail a lot and  now we are winners, because we had learned. People who looks at us some day can say : You are a lucky guy! You have so many things.  And then you can respond, yeah i worked for is so hard.  Men, i have been trying and trying and nothing came right. Well, you tried  not enough times.

Todays at lesson I heard that fails help us in our lives the same way as winnings do. And I think that was good lesson to be at.

Vocabulary: spring 3.

apostate - adj. not faithful to religion or party or cause;noun a disloyal person who betrays or deserts his cause or religion or political party or friend etc.
effusive - adj. extravagantly demonstrative; uttered with unrestrained enthusiasm
impasse - noun a street with only one way in or out; a situation in which no progress can be made or no advancement is possible
euphoria - noun a feeling of great (usually exaggerated) elation
lugubrious - adj. excessively mournful
bravado - noun a swaggering show of courage
consensus - noun agreement in the judgment or opinion reached by a group as a whole
dichotomy - noun being twofold; a classification into two opposed parts or subclasses
constrict - verb become tight or as if tight; squeeze or press together
gothic - adj. characterized by gloom and mystery and the grotesque; of or relating to the Goths; of or relating to the language of the ancient Goths;
punctilio - noun strict observance of formalities; a fine point of etiquette or petty formality
metamorphosis - noun a complete change of physical form or substance especially as by magic or witchcraft;the marked and rapid transformation of a larva into an adult that occurs in some animals; a striking change in appearance or character or circumstances
raconteur - noun a person skilled in telling anecdotes
sine qua non - an indispensable and essential action, condition, or ingredient.
quixotic - adj. not sensible about practical matters; unrealistic
vendetta - noun a feud in which members of the opposing parties murder each other
non sequitur - An inference or conclusion that does not follow from the premises or evidence; A statement that does not follow logically from what preceded it.
mystique - noun an aura of heightened value or interest or meaning surrounding a person or thing
quagmire - noun a soft wet area of low-lying land that sinks underfoot
parlous - adj. fraught with danger

Cookies 0 calories.

I was wondering  how  i can be child again. Not literally, but by doing some infant stuff. Like sleep over  at my grandma's home (yeah thats is my 2nd home- always some part of memories would catch me in my  present being and also in future) or eating sweet, unhealthy things and don't care about calories. Because of  one simple reason - i don't even  know that they exist... Anyway. In my head i have started realising, that i'm becoming an adult- and it scares me . So much that -as always i wanted to be and  felt older than i actually was.  It scares my that i have just? is it just or enough?  two years to fully grown up. This year im going to turn 18. So according to Polish high school i supposed to end up it  in age of 20,5. (one year later than people in my age because of an exchange year in usa-ill write about it in future post) Later on i would feel guilty if i won't  grow up. I don't wanna be child foever.  Do I?

Thing that scares me the most is fact that i would have to run everything by my own. Pay everything each expenses for myself. Start going to a job - which i actually don't have to love , even like. That in some point people would start asking not comfortable question, because when they do think that you are an adult- they can ask you for whatever they want to.  You are not a child they'll say. You not supposed to be worrying about my stupid questions. Really? So why would you ask ?
That's  part of growing-up. I know that it will happen.  Maybe that's why i have started thinking about time machine, rainbows and cookies-no calories? Maybe that's why i still not sure who i wanna be in future?

When i was little to each question my parents found an answer. I still even don't know how, but as I see being grown up women, being an adult :
A lot of questions. Not a lot of answers.

3 people that had inspired and impact my life.

Since five years I'm interested in photography. Day by day I'm trying to get better and better. However i couldn't start my passion just by myself - so here it is -David Duchemin.

 He " is a world & humanitarian assignment photographer, best-selling author, international workshop leader, and accidental founder of Craft & Vision. When not chasing adventure and looking for beauty".  http://davidduchemin.com/contact/

I mainly increase my skills basing on his materials. I road his books, ebooks.  Here is link to his portfolio : http://davidduchemin.com/portfolio/global-good/
He is making money on his passion. At the same  time he is helping a lot people by showing living conditions in the World. He inspired me that i can travel and be whoever i wanna be in future.

When i was thinking about another person that i really would like to know -jump to my mind - Martyna Wojciechowska. She is "Editor-in-chief of the Polish edition of National Geographic magazine, National Geographic Traveler and Kaleidoscope.". 

Except that, she climbed to all of 7 the highest mountains in the world.  She has got  degree in economics -what is one of mine interest fields (even that she traveled and got to know a big part of the World). By her brave and whole life  is showing that even with difficulties, we can make ours dream come true. Even if she is a women -she shown big strength of soul. http://www.martynawojciechowska.pl/   I rode one of her books - about when she was climbing to Mountain Everest and it really impressed me and open my eyes that nothing is impossible.

My third person unfortunately dead at 2005- but he  had  really big impact in my life. In whole World  did. I'm telling about John Poul 2. He was speaking and shearing his beliefs and knowledge at simple but in really interesting way. He traveled and spread catolic religion all around the World. When i was younger i used to hear his speaking  each Sunday. Whole family sat by the tv to listen his speech. He changed World showing that we supposed to be grateful what we got from God and show another people love in simple, good gestures.

Thats my people.  Somehow they show me that is no border to realise dreams. Somehow im sitting right here in Santa Maria, California -miles and miles away from my homeland. It's one reason of that - i had belived that i can.